FAQ 2: Are you manipulative?

LOL! I love this one.

tl;dr no.
Imagine me saying no like Simon Amstell at 00:47ish:

Practising that "no" took more time than anyone could imagine! I still haven't got it down right. :(

Context: People with BPD are often said to be manipulative. I'm presuming that's where the "don't stick your dick in crazy" comes from when talking about borderlines because a lot of people have reported that their borderline partners threatened things like suicide if they left them. I even read something yesterday about some guy's girlfriend slashing his tires when he left her.
hehehe I developed a theory on that as I was typing it: maybe she was subconsciously putting the breaks on him which is why she went for the tires. omg i'm such a psychology nerd! love. it.



In my case, I'm not manipulative. I'm selfless, somewhat of an altruist, I love people and hurting anyone would only make me feel guilty and worse about myself. I try to make life easy for other people because I know the shit that people have to deal with and I don't want to make it worse on them, hence why I'm the manipulative trait that is often associated with borderlines can't be associated with me. I'm a "quiet borderline" and so I guess this would also explain why I lack the manipulative trait - when I'm in any kind of pain, I refuse to tell anyone and take it out on myself. For those that read the "about me" section, the part where I was writing about being unable to appropriately deal with things refers to this! Take my becoming a call girl, for example, I was feeling a suffocating pain at the time and instead of telling my ex and threatening things like suicide and self-harm and whatnot, I took it out on myself instead and expressed the pain via hypersexuality.