I just realised I was raped.

How do react to something that should be old news? It didn't happen recently. In fact, it happened weeks before Boyfriend broke up with me and months before I became a call girl. I tried blocking the memories out for so long that I ignored the entire situation and just a few hours ago it all came rushing through my mind. What the hell am I supposed to do? I don't know what to think. I'm thought-less. I'm never thoughtless.